The enemy has been bombarding me with a lot of negative forces in my mind. Through overthinking, I end up worrying and not praying – that’s the plain truth. This is a serious case that I personally have to handle with God but it can also be the same for other Filipino youths here in Italy.
As I have read a lot of missed news from my mother church, I felt a burden weighing on my shoulders – not only for me but also for my fellow young people. You see, you cannot blame others but your own negligence of your responsibilities in knowing what you have heard or seen – that at the very end of the day, you allow evil to take over your Godly purpose. Remember in all the things that we know, WE ARE ALREADY INVOLVED AND LIABLE for them.
It is not easy to live in a foreign land. The people, the lifestyle and the governmental norms are different that you have to add them painstakingly in your learning efforts just to have security and be a normal human being. I was asking myself, Lord, why here in Italy? This kind of situation wasn’t what I wanted it to be. I have to learn their complicated language and learn how to deal with this type of people. It became an extra challenge for me as I grow more mentally. I was only 14 then – juvenile and naive, not fully aware of the reality and I felt so much failure that my pride is hurt. But now, I believe, I was sent here for a good purpose.
I remember when I left the Philippines for about 5 years ago, there were revelations that the Lord kept me reminded of. The rhema words that I heard through His prophet Sadhu Sundar Selvaraj are hovering inside my mind – EZER BRIDE, THE BRIDE OF CHRIST, CLOUD OF GLORY, END TIME WARRIORS and so forth. But for instance, I am caught up at the “ambition” part, that my co-age bracket undergo also, which stealthily steals our focus to God and His will. That kind of circumstance where we are surrounded by many temptations – seeing what’s approval to the world and un/knowingly agreeing to their practices that separate us more from Him. How sad that as I ponder through all those years, what have I done to make out the most of my time? How many times am I going to be passive about everything He has told me? Didn’t I allocate enough time to keep my relationship on going with God and to keep the fire of faith burning?
Apparently, this is not the time to blame ourselves, instead, this is a wake up call from our laziness and lukewarmness. I believe we will still have to strive in doing what must be rightly done including the effort of learning how to live and not to make a living. We also have to organize well our time and commitments.
God desires an ordinary, broken, poor, self-less, faceless volunteer for His kingdom. He will give enough resources to us for His purpose and glory. And when we submit to His will, we know that we shall deny our human spirit out of the abundance of our love for Him.
Now, which one gains more of our trust? Worldly wealth or Godly wealth? as the Lord has said in His word at Jeremiah 29:11-13
11 For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the Lord, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.
12 Then shall ye call upon me, and ye shall go and pray unto me, and I will hearken unto you.
13 And ye shall seek me, and find me, when ye shall search for me with all your heart.
He promises us an abundant life that’s different to the meaning of abundance in the worldly context. That “expected end” is the destiny that we should be contending for. So let’s ask ourself, what would you expect your life ending be? a miserable or a purposeful one?
Let’s use our energy in pursuing His eternal plan while we’re still young because it is just simply worth our time and existence. He has and always will assure the fulfillment of His word whether we like it or not. Above all else, we should learn how to love and love and love through caring and helping each other to get on our feet and soar higher – embracing weaknesses, yielding to our differences, worshipping the Lord and interceding for our nation’s destiny – CONTEND (Cry Out Now To Enforce our Nation’s Destiny) by Bishop Dan A. Balais, national chairman of IFP.
GOD BE OUR STRENGTH AND COURAGE!!!